28 January 2009

Beggars like me

mall shifts in my world - proofing myself to myself, in day to day life.

Sundaymorning waiting at the busstation with my friend and the kids, a man came to us, asking 60 eurocent, so he could take the train home to Zevenaar.

My friend told him no, and he turned to me. I looked at him, in an intense way, I did not hear what he was saying, in me a kind of struggle. I remembered something that was said on the forum about not giving money to beggars because that's how you support this system. At the same time this other belief of me wanting to share was present. I have enough money, so why not give this guy some of it, so he can go home. He probably was a junk, by the looks of him, and by the way he behaved, but first of all I saw another human being. Not a system. And I looked at him not hearing a word he spoke.

I didn't really understand why not to give money, just remembered it, not able to live it, because it was not me, but merely an idea in my head. The 'wanting to share' idea was more prominent, so I ended up with giving him some money. Telling him that if he was lying about why he needed the money, it would be his responsability (whaaaaaa, I actually said that! so dishonest towards him and myself - actually just a justification why I gave him the money, knowing something 'was not right')

Ok, the guy went away and I talked with my friend about what happened. She told me he changed his story why he needed the money, where he was going too and the amount he needed several times while he spoke to me - me not hearing a word he spoke. So it was obvious, common sense, he was not telling the truth and so on. Well, I didn't actually mind - to me this was an interesting encounter with me and the junkie/beggar as me and within me.

I didn't and still don't blame myself, or criticize myself for 'falling for it', or any of this, that's cool. I could see this event was to show me to me.

Later on, back home, I sat down and saw this picture with much detail of the guy in my head, very intense he was here with me. I took him in me and applied sf - on being a junk, a beggar, depending on stuff separated from me/him and more. Then I could actually see I gave him the money because of the addict in me and in him not giving the money I would actually in selfhonesty say 'I am not allowing me to be an addict, not allowing me to depend on something/someone' and that sir, is a brdge too far lol. So at that particular moment (not aware of these thoughts) I felt trapped: saying 'no' would have meant 'I am not allowing you to be addicted, but me, yes, I can be because I have money', so saying 'yes' was the 'easy' way out - well, a little easier. This 'wanting to share', well I'm not clear on that one yet, but surely there are some hidden self interest points! Opening yet another box of Pandora lol.

I'll have to look up the 'beggar stuff' on the forum - I'm not sure if I understand. Or maybe better not, because it would mean just knowledge to me - I do not need more knowledge, I'm stuffed already. How to practically apply, that's what counts.

27 January 2009

Grounding - assisting D and me

23 september 2008

Grounding him in and as the physical - is the 'way to go' - for him to be self aware here of his physical human body.

Ingrid, with D - his experience with regards to the mind and the physical is more 'acute' and 'sensitive' than other children his age - he's at the phase in his years in this world wherein the being 'shifts into the mind-reality' as 'support' / 'as foundation' from which to exist in - as the thoughts/experiences within as emotions/feelings/reactions - are being / have been 'trusted' as being 'who self is / who I am'.
The 'fainting' experience is the manifested physical indication that he's still allowing himself to be 'directed' by what he experiences inside himself - meaning, he completely 'follows' what he experiences within - as though his mind is his leader and he's the obedient servant that without even a moment's consideration - just follow - compromising self completely.
Also, in this to observe Ingrid - how diligently we follow the mind, without question - no consideration for/of self - no regard for/of self - not realising the manifested consequences that go with it.
He's physically experiencing what we've always done, accepted and allowed within ourselves with regards to our relationship to the mind - wherein no 'self here' exists.
Grounding him in and as the physical - is the 'way to go' - for him to be self aware here of his physical human body.
Suggested to show him breathing - share with him, how in being aware of your breathing, assist and support you to always be here - otherwise, the mind will take over and cause experiences that compromise self - to always make sure he 'feels his hands' - that hes aware of his hands touching, of what his hands touch as this is also an indication of being here in and as the physical - and also the experience of touch.
So, with breathing - for 5 - 10 minutes an evening, breathe with him, breathe in, hold for a moment, breathe out, hold for a moment = maybe you could even find music to which to breathe to with the beats = though no words suggested within the music.
With regards to touch - walk around the house/take objects, let him hold them/touch them and then ask him what he experiences as the touch - do this with him - could be fun, also for you.
Even outside is cool - touching plants/grass/sand - while you're making food - touch what you're preparing to eat.
Also let him know - not to 'just give into' what he experiences inside himself - but to share with you when he has an experience inside himself that he doesn't understand and to describe the experience - so that you're able to assist and support him to understand himself and to from there - you assist and support him to direct himself - through him as you, sharing himself with you.

25 January 2009

Osho on Desire

Desire for happiness. Kill it out. It appears very gloomy, sad, life-negating. It is not. The more you desire comfort, the more discomfort will be felt. The more you desire comfort, the more discomfort you are creating for yourself, because discomfort is relative to the desire for comfort. The more you ask for happiness, the more you will be in suffering.
The suffering is a shadow. The greater the desire for happiness, the greater will be the shadow. Ask for happiness and you will never get it. You will only suffer frustration. Why? Because there is only one
way to be happy, and that is to be happy here, now. Happiness is not a result. It is a way of life.

20 January 2009


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel depressed, tired, instead of being HERE, facing what is actually HERE NOW.

What is actually here and now this moment - me here sitting on the coach with my laptop, typing.

I am here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to drift off in this feeling of depression because I don't know how to handle stuff. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create a feeling of being depressed and acting it out, instead of being here, not of and in the mind. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing me to create 'I do not know how to handle this stuff' and acting and feeling accordingly, instead of being here and just let things be what they are, nothing more, nothing less. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create the need to 'handle this stuff' out of fear of what might happen when I do not 'handle this stuff' - instead of me being here, realizing 'stuff will handle' itself without me wanting/needing to control the outcome out of fear of the outcome. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the outcome - instead of me being here, realizing 'the outcome' is not here but in the future, so no business of mine NOW and HERE.

I am here. Sitting on the coach, typing sf on the laptop.

01 January 2009

2009 Humans Provided ENERGY for Heaven to Exist

-19 April 2009 -
...Or I mean, all this Energy that you have during your orgasmic -experience, you're masturbating and Whoa! - I mean, theres this Energy and then its gone. It is not back in your body you can check. Where did it go?
Nobody noticed I mean, Who cares? I''m satisfied, this is a Consumption - Existence.
You are not aware AT ALL of anything you''re doing. Youre not aware of what youre participating in AT ALL.
You can go and have a look: For instance, when you fall in love, that Energy-sparks that happen, that you direct to somebody and then the relationship falls apart eventually, but there was all this Energy, where did it go to? It was Consumed. Yes, part of it you have consumed.
The rest was fascinatingly channelled to Heaven.
Heaven could not exist without Energy.
Desteni In discussion with Bernard Poolman ,  

For the complete discussion of 83 Minutes:
ZeroPoint, Enlightenment and A Higher Path 1 and 2
part 1
http://www.livevideo.com/video/Desten... part 2

2009 The Fall of God - by Bernard Poolman

Ok – We’re going to Discuss
‘The Fall of God’
Remember ‘Everything is in Reverse’ that means: if it’s written it was ‘The Fall of Man’ what does it mean? It’s not ‘The Fall of Man’, it’s ‘The Fall of God’ – ‘Everything is in Reverse’ –
If you start studying every-single thing that’s written Here in this Reality and you ‘Reverse-it’, you’re gonna start finding-out ‘what’s going on’.
So- ‘The Fall of God’ is ‘The Creation of Man’ in ‘The ‘Image’ and ‘Likeness’ of ‘God’’ and Man ‘Exist’-As ‘What’? As a ‘Name’, as ‘Words’ that is apparently-‘Alive’ which is ‘The Living Words’, ‘You are ‘The ‘Living Word’’ you read-from ‘The Living Word’ the ‘Holy-Books’ that ‘Tell’-you all-about: ‘God’.
What is-it really ‘Telling’-you? It´s ‘Telling’-you all-about ‘You’ = You’re The ‘Gods’ that’s ‘Fallen’.

The Question is ‘How?’ ‘How’ did you manage to ‘Fall’ and in that Process ‘Created’- Yourself as Only-‘Pictures’, ‘Images’ and ‘Likenesses’ – Nothing Real- So, if it says you’re ‘The ‘Image’ and ‘Likeness’ of ‘God’’ - I mean, what does it say? That you’re ‘Nothing like ‘God’’, you’re not ‘the Same’, you’ve Abdicated ‘All of-it’, ‘Everything’ and you have No-Way of ‘getting-it back’, Ever – Now I’ll explain to-you ‘Why’: You must Understand that if you look-at ‘History’ that is available to be ‘studied’, you’ll notice it started ‘suddenly’.

When Earth was first ‘Considered’ as ‘the Point’ where ‘Creation’ could have become something ‘different’, ‘Substantial’- ‘those’ in the Universe that you can-call ‘The Creator Gods’ saw an Opportunity – their Opportunity was simplistic, they had a Problem: the ‘Substance’ with-which they were working – which was Earth = they did Not ‘Understand’, it was ‘behaving’- ‘differently’ to anything they have ‘worked’-with up to that moment. So they needed to do a lot of ‘Research’ which they did over a long period of Time. The ‘Research’ was done by ‘placing’ ‘Beings’ into various ‘Forms’ that was ‘Designed’ from the Earth – that you would call ‘Bodies’ today – and to ‘Observe’ ‘What’ they ‘Respond’-to and ‘How’ their ‘Responses’ could be ‘Managed’. So, by the Time ‘the ‘Story of Jesus’ is ‘set’ to have-‘happened’, and the ‘point’ that was ‘shared’ then that ‘Angel-Gods’ can be ‘seen’-as one of the Primary ‘Starting-Points’, because at that ‘stage’ already – which is 2000 years-ago – Man was already-‘Trapped’, it means all the ‘Gods’ were already-‘Trapped’ as ‘Pictures’ and Unable to ‘get-out’
Now, ‘How did this ‘Happen’’?

Initially in the ‘Research’ in-which was ‘Created’ the ‘Male’ and the ‘Female’ ‘Form’, the ‘Separation’ that took-place, a consideration was-to have a-look ‘what happens’ in the ‘Interaction’ between ‘the Male’ and ‘the Female’ Interdimensionally was ‘Observed’ the ‘Creation’ of ‘Energy’, an ‘Energy’ that-you ‘Experience’ when you’re having-Sex for instance and so on, but you don’t ‘See’ where it goes – it goes somewhere- that ‘Energy’ was for instance as an example your ‘Energy’ that-is coming from ‘Sex’, ‘Anger’- any ‘form’ of ‘conflict’ or ‘friction’ between two ‘parts’ of the Earth as ‘Living-Beings’ – ‘Male’ and ‘Female’ or even ‘Male’ and Male’ or ‘Female’ and ‘Female’ – with any point of Interaction that brings ‘Friction’ in some-way would ‘Create’ in that Process an ‘Energy’. This Energy then was ‘taken’ and ‘studied’ and ‘considered’ and it was utilized – it was amazing what could be done with this ‘Energy’ in the ‘Realm’ that you are ‘not-in now’ - call it ‘the Other Side’- So they found this ‘Energy’ they could do with-it many-things. So with-it was created ‘the Heavens’ and the ‘Soul-Construct’

The ‘Soul Construct’ was a ‘Energetic-Body’ a ‘Heavenly-Body’, a ‘Body of Light’, a ‘Body of Bliss’ – or whatever you wanna call-it, it was a ‘Body of Energy’ - that was used as something to be ‘Aspired’-to – so that means it was utilized by getting ‘All the Gods in the Universe’ together and say to-them: ‘But Here we have discovered ‘something more’, something you didn’t ‘know’ about’- Because, ‘the Gods’ itself in the Universe - which were you - had an ‘Expiry-Date’, you ‘came’-from ‘Planets’ and you ‘return’-to ‘Planets’ – there was No ‘Process’ of ‘Birth’ as it is Here on Earth.

So, they got it all-together and, ‘showed’ an Interesting-‘Possibility’ and that was that there could be a New-‘Form’ of ‘Creation’ which would-bring an ‘Eternal-Life’ and obviously for Any-‘Being’ that ‘Died’, the ‘Promise’ of ‘Eternal-Life’ was quite ‘inviting’ – Now obviously you must not understand ‘Death’ in the terms-of what you now Experience after a ‘short time’ - I mean, ‘Beings’ could exist for ‘millions of years’ compared-to what you now ‘Exist’-as. It was simply not something that One can ‘Understand’ within the ‘context’ of this ‘Reality’ – so we’re gonna stick-to the things that’s ‘Relevant’ to Your-‘Existence’ as ‘Who you are now’ as a ‘Name’ where you’re Living attempting to-‘Make a Name’ for Yourself - which is ‘How’ everybody’s ‘living’. ‘Man’ attempting to-‘Make a Name’, and then ‘based’-on that ‘Name’ you have ‘Value’ with-which you can ‘Manipulate’ ‘other-Names’ and therefore your ‘Name’ carries ‘weight’ and is ‘written-down’ and it is in-then, in ‘books’ as your ‘Attainment’, ‘you leave-it behind’ for the Generations to come.

With the ‘Creation of the Soul’ obviously there was a ‘Attainment’- ‘Possibility’ but the ‘Attainment’ was Presented in such a way that it could only be ‘Attained’-through ‘going-through’ Earth. Now, since ‘Everybody’-knew that ‘Everybody’ came-from ‘Planets’, it was quite ‘Common-Sense’ - you ‘go-through’ Earth from which you ‘arise’ and from-that you ‘Attain’ and, you get a ‘Eternal-Body’= ‘The Soul’ – It became thus the ‘Sole-Purpose’ of Everyone, to ‘do-that’. Now, what was another-‘point’ that was interesting as it was ‘Researched’ obviously by the ‘Time’ this was ‘in’ ready to be Implemented, what did they already-know? They could ‘Impulse’ ‘the Reality of Earth’ – which was a ‘Sound Reality’– by ‘Creating’ a ‘Timeline’.

Now in-terms of-‘Time’ - in our ‘Reality’ as it ‘Exist’, ‘Time’ is really actually-‘moving’- So what they would-do is: ‘the point’ was ‘what’? An ‘Entry’-Level and an ‘Attainment’-Level - For everybody it was said that your ‘Attainment’ would-be: ‘You Become a ‘Soul’. What was Not-said is more-important, is that you will only be able to ‘Become a ‘Soul’’ if-You ‘Submit’ to the ‘Creator-Gods’ for ‘Eternity’, which would mean – because at that ‘stage’ they’ve already found-out something interesting: they ‘need’ a continuous ‘support’, ‘supply’ of this ‘Energy’ to be able to ‘Maintain’ their ‘Reality’, so they obviously need ‘Beings’ Continuously ‘Attaining’ or ‘Trying’ to-‘Become ‘Souls’’ and then from there, ‘Supporting’ the whole ‘System’.

Now, we have ‘touched’ a little-bit on all the various ‘Civilizations’ that was existent in the Universe,
and some of-them obviously had Particular-‘Skills’- some which was utilized ‘specifically’ in the ‘Creation’ of ‘Systems’ ‘Interdimensionally’ which was found to have an ‘Effect’ on ‘Sound’ on the ‘Physicality of Earth’.

So, just ‘in-brief’ I’m at this stage going to ‘Explain’ to-you ‘How’ some of the ‘points’ came-about.
So what they then did, is they ‘Created’ an ‘Interactive’- ‘Timeline’ of ‘Events’ that would ‘Move’ in ‘Waves of Polarity’: ‘up and down’ - up/down, up/down, up/down, up/down – which means you’ll have a ‘Creative-Point’ and then a ‘Destructive-Point’ then a ‘Creative-Point’, then a ‘Destructive-Point’-
And that would be ‘Aligned’-with ‘another-Being’ – so you have a ‘Male’/ ‘Female’ - you have ‘two’ ‘moving-together’, which then ‘cause’ an ‘Interactive’ ‘Timeline’ which is the way ‘DNA’ is represented.

And within that ‘Timeline’- that ‘Line’ of ‘Movement’, which is ‘in the ‘Timeline’’ that is ‘Presented’, ‘Embedded’, ‘Ingrained’ and ‘Gridded’- in that ‘Grid’ you-have now your ‘DNA’ that ‘Activates’ according-to the ‘Timeline’ that ‘unfolds’ – So if you look at-it ‘moving’ your ‘Life’ would be ‘layered’ in the ‘Movement of Time’, which is according-to ‘Your-‘movement’’- you establish that ‘Movement’ is as ‘you-move’ in your ‘Life’ you come, you ‘meet’ a person, you ‘touch’ the person - at that ‘touch’, an ‘Energetic-Event’ take-place, it ‘moves-your’ ‘time-line’ ‘forward’, and the next-‘Point’ in your Existence ‘unfold’, which-will Always-start if it is ‘something’ that is particularly-‘there’ to get-you to ‘Submission’: it’ll Always-start with a ‘High-Note’, with something-‘good’ – and it’ll take-you to the ‘pinnacle’ of- that, and then it’s ‘removed’ and then you ‘fall to the bottom’ - and every time you ‘fall to the bottom’ of this ‘Line’ as you ‘move’-through your Lives - ‘Life after Life’ - you will Accept ‘less and less’ and you will ‘Compromise’ and say: “ok but I wanna-get ‘back-there’” and then in ‘trying to-get ‘back-there’, the message will-be: ‘But you can only-get ‘back-there’ if you ‘give-this-up’ and so you start to ‘give-up’ things - Things about Yourself and you start to ‘leave-it behind’ in this ‘Timeline’, which is similar to having it ‘Saved’ as a ‘Memory’ within a ‘Hard-Drive’. And as you ‘leave-it behind’, by the ‘Time’ you get to ‘Death’, have a-look at an Old Person ‘what’s left’? They´re Completely-‘drained’ through their Experiences – Have they ‘become’ a ‘Better-Being’? ‘something-More’? when where them, Anybody ‘been their ‘Best’’? When they were young, ‘full of Energy’, ‘Hope’ and – I mean ‘ready’ for this whole-‘Process’, but that means they should’ve become ‘Better’, I mean, they are ‘Evolving’ – What ‘Happens’? They Become-‘Less’ – and what do they ‘Honor’? this ‘Point’ where the ‘Old’-one at the least, is the ‘Point’ that’s ‘Honored’, that ‘Automatically’ ‘Imprints’-on the Young.

So now, a person moves through this ‘Program-Timeline’ that ‘Presents-Itself’ as in ‘Coded- Symbolic-Information’ – which is currently ‘measured’ as ‘DNA’, and it ‘moves’-through the ‘Spiraling-Effect’ - as a ‘Fibonacci-Spiral’ within a ‘Sequence’ of ‘Events’, which is ‘based’-on an ‘High-Experience’ and a ‘Low-Experience’, with the ‘Low-Experience’ being ‘the Bad’ and the ‘High’ the ‘Good, so that you will-always when you are in ‘the Bad’ you’ll ‘move’ to ‘the Good’– and therefore you keep-on ‘moving-yourself’ through-this, because ‘Automatically’ when you get to ‘the Bad’ ‘what do you wanna-do? ‘Get to the Good’ - imagine the next-Mountain, and the ‘Mountains’ has even-become ‘Symbolic’ ‘Wonderful-Achievements’ that is ‘Spiritual’ and ‘Religious’ in-‘nature’ and therefore you ‘aspire’ to get to your next ‘Mountain’ – What are you not ‘Realizing’? As you continue have a-look, it happens in ‘Spirituality’: you give-up ‘more and more and more’ of yourself and in-‘that’ you’re ‘Apparently’ ‘Becoming a Master’, it’s said you’re ‘Mastering-Yourself’, you have to ‘Give-up Everything’ – once you ‘Give-up’ ‘Everything’= then you’re a ‘Master’, you’re no-longer ‘Controlled’ by ‘the Physical’.

What have you ‘Completed’? you have ‘Completed’ your ‘Abdication’-of ‘You’ - into ‘Eternal-Damnation’ -

Extremely ‘well-done’ I mean, this was ‘so well-done’ that you are ‘so consumed’ by ‘Living this Process, at the ‘Hope’ that ‘You’ are ‘Special’, ‘You’ are ‘Divine’, ‘You’ are ‘Looked-after by ‘God’’, You’re gonna-get through-this’, that you do-not Realize that ‘slowly but surely’ You’re Losing-You.
So – All that was ‘Required’ within-this, was a ‘History’ that would ‘Always’ go to the ‘worst-case scenario’ – if you look-back at all History, what ‘Happens’? And also, ‘Always’: Any Person that ‘Stands-Up’ and ‘take-on Reality’, always gets ‘Annihilated’ and those that ‘Give-up Everything’ of themselves and ‘Become Masters’, they’re the ones that is ‘Aspired’-to and is those-that will ‘‘Lead’-You to Your ‘Eternal-Soul’’.

Now have a-look: your ‘Timeline’ takes on - ‘What’? The ‘Symbolism’ of a: ‘Path’ - you are seeking ‘Your-Path’ that ‘works’ for-You, and within-that you ‘Accept’ in ‘Your Path’ there’s gonna be ‘Ups and Downs’, and these ‘Ups and Downs’ is going to be the things that’s going to make-‘you’ a ‘Better-Person’ –
I mean go and look at the ‘Old People’ - how ‘Good’ are they? They can barely-speak their ‘Names’, they’re a ‘Better-Person’ isn’t it? They can barely-remember anything; they can barely-wipe their own asses, ‘Oh! They’ve become a ‘Better-Person’’ Now they’re going to ‘Die’ and ‘Get their Soul’ -
What they didn’t ‘know’ obviously, is that the ‘Soul’ was ‘Energetically-Programmable’ by the Same-‘Symbolism’, so that ‘the Moment you Die’= Somebody ‘meet-you’ and ‘Remove’ your ‘Energetic-Memories’ that you have ‘left behind’ and ‘place-it’ in the ‘Akashic-Record’.
That’s all the ‘Parts’ of-You you have now already ‘given-away’, but that’s made ‘Holy’ - because you are ‘on a ‘Path’ of ‘Evolving’’ to a ‘Higher-Purpose’ –
Do You ‘See’ that ‘Purpose’ in the ‘Path’, unfolding of those that’s gone before-you? No!
What do you see ‘unfold’? You see ‘Machines’ unfold, you see ‘Control’ unfold, you see your ‘Ability’ to Reason for Yourself ‘Constructively’ Diminish and all you have to do is ‘go-back’ 30, 40 years and you will Not be Able to do the exam papers from ‘that time’ – your ‘Ability’ to ‘Deal-with Information’ has ‘Diminished’ Considerably.

‘How did it ‘Happen’’? Through ‘this Process’, of slowly but surely ‘siphoning’-away - with your ‘Permission’! - Yourself.
Now, you are ‘scattered’ in a ‘Construct’ called ‘Time’ throughout ‘Infinity’ and you can´t ‘Remember’ Where you have ‘Left Yourself’, on ‘all the ‘Parts’ of Yourself’, which is quite a problem, because in-‘Essence’: to get-it all ‘back’, you´re going to have to ‘Walk in Reverse’, that means ‘Walk’ Everything that you have done up to now, throughout billions and billions of years in ‘Giving-up’ Your-‘Self’ - to ‘bring-Yourself’ ‘back-together’ again.
What was ‘more interesting’ in this whole ‘Point, was that - In all of ‘This’, while they were ‘Creating´ This - something else was ‘Happening’ that they did not Consider: Earth was Changing. Earth was ‘Alive’, and Earth was Not-necessarily ‘Aligned’ with ‘what they were doing’.

So - When they Realized ‘the Problem’, they needed to ‘Automate’ the ‘System’.
And they needed to make-sure that ‘No-One will ‘Ever’ get-out of This’. To do that, they started ‘Programming’-into these ‘sequences’: ‘Nastiness’ to a level that is never-been ‘seen’ before, as you see-it today in ‘Reality’ - That ‘Nastiness’ is what has Become-‘You’, because it is ‘Symbolically-Triggered’ as your ‘Symbolism’, as your ‘Resonant-Symbols’, as you ‘move-through’ your ‘Timeline’ and ‘comes-up’ as ‘Thoughts’ about other-people -until that ‘Thought’ becomes ‘the Living You’, where you have those ‘Thoughts’ of other-people ‘all the Time’ – and you find yourself ‘Unable’ to Consider anyone as ‘Equal’ because you ‘Judge’ them all, all the Time. And have a-‘look’: if you´re ‘Self-Honest’, you´ll notice your ‘Total-Existence’ ‘Exist’ out-of ‘One-thing’: You´re Always ‘Right’ and Everybody-else is Always ‘Wrong’. – and you´re busy-with ‘Your Life-Path’ and no one can fucking tell-you anything about that, and you will walk this ‘Alone’, all by Yourself and You will ‘get- it’- I promise you, you won’t. You are ‘Essentially’ ‘Fucked’ for Eternity.
There is No Way Out.

Not as long as this ‘Exist’ -and ‘to get-out of this’, you´re going to have to get, Become ‘Self-Honest’ and as you´ve already-noticed, I mean, how long have some of you been on the Farm? What is the most difficult thing that Exist?
Self-Honesty - Your Ability to ‘Stop’ your ‘Resonant-Thoughts’, most difficult. You will always ‘Change’- it, for ‘your own benefit’, no-matter ‘what’ – You Will-Not ‘Stand’ for ‘Life’.

Your Own Interest is Predominant and therefore, what ‘Happens’? All that ‘Happens’ is just ‘New Cycles’, same ‘Timeline’s, same ‘shit’ – No Change. And also No possibility of Change -
Why? These things are Existing In you, As you - You are this.
And within that, you are ‘Programmed’ to ‘Fear this Change’ so much - that you will-Not Consider ‘Changing’, your are Not willing to ‘give-that-up’ – because something is going to ‘Happen’ when you ‘give-this-up’: Your gonna become ‘Empty’, have no ‘Thoughts’, have ‘No Mind’ – How are you gonna Interact in this Reality? And Really, you are - when that happens - there is ‘nothing’, you can´t speak properly, you can´t ‘reason’ properly – Nothing. That´s what´ll ‘Happen’ - You´re still gonna be Here, as the ‘Physical Body’, but the ‘Physical Body’ is now without the ‘Machine’ that was ‘running’-it.

And it´s gonna take some ‘effort’ to Transcend all of those ‘points’ and obviously, if you have ‘No Support’ - which you´re not gonna have because people is gonna say to you: “No, Impossible, I mean, we are here living In ‘God´s Reality’” – “‘God’ gave us ‘Free Will’, ‘Free Choice’, to Fuck-Ourselves” – I mean, Old-People should be advertised as the reason ‘why you shouldn’t live’. I mean, if you start listening to them, you hear the obvious nature of a major problem that is taking place – this ‘Being’ is completely going Fucking ‘Insane’ and it is seen as an ‘Attainment’ and they´re now gonna get a Fucking ‘Soul’ - Where is the ‘CommonSense’ Logic in all of this that´s ‘Happening’? Where is our ‘Great Thinkers’? Which you must now admit the ones that ‘see’-themselves as the ‘Great Thinkers’ of Reality, is the ‘Atheists’. Where are they not being able to See such ‘simplicity’ of the problem? That there is Not a ‘Progression’ taking-place - there is a ‘Devolution’ taking-place.

Why? They´re in the same ‘fucking-thing’, they´re no-‘different’, they are ‘Trapped’ in exactly the same thing – it´s Irrelevant, It is Totally-Irrelevant what you ‘believe’-in. Your Religion means Nothing, it is Irrelevant what you are ‘believing’-in – because in ‘Self-Honesty’: ‘the Construct of your Thoughts’ and the ‘Actions’ you will-‘take’ in your ‘Reality’, are all the same for everyone. You all have exactly the same ‘desires’, you have all the exactly the same ‘wishes’, you have just various-levels of-it ‘Emerging’, depending-on ‘where you are’ in your ‘Timeline’, because all of these ‘Timelines’ are ‘running concurrently’ in various-‘Gridlines’ - so another-one will be running ‘there’, another-one will be running-‘there’ - but they are not ‘Synchronizing’. They´re only Synchronizing with those People that you are going to ‘meet’, which is a very small ‘group of people’ in this Reality, very few people that you´ll meet through a ‘Lifetime’, compared to all the People that´s ‘Here’. And with those, you´ll have a ‘Synchronistic-Connection’ – it´s because your bloody ‘Timelines’ are ‘Synchronized’ within the ‘Gridline’ and you are through the ‘Resonant-Symbols’, experiencing the ‘Energetic-Interaction’ that takes-place and all of-that ‘Energy’ was always going to ‘Heaven’, and you were ‘fueling’ ‘Heaven’.

So they then ‘Created’ a ‘Closed-System’, because they had a Problem:
‘The System’ was Becoming ‘Alive’ and they needed it to make-sure it´s going to be able to ‘Feed’-them firstly, and secondly they needed to make-sure, that No-One can ‘break’-out ‘the System’ - Therefore they made it a complete ‘Madness’ – which is now ‘Predominant’, where ‘each one’ that is in this ‘Reality’: Believes ‘they have ‘The Answer’’ and what they Believe, is ‘The Answer’ and they will-Not, and they are Not-willing to ‘give-up’ their ‘Way of Thinking’, ‘their Path’ - they believe ‘their Path’ will ‘Lead’-them to ‘The Answer’ – it will… ‘Lead-you’ to ‘The Answer’: What I´ve just explained to you – Where you´re Totally-‘Fucked’, which is ‘The Answer’ – it will ‘Lead-you’ to ‘The Answer’ I mean, it ‘Will’.

When we Realized the extend of the problem – we also Realized that Nobody is going to want to Hear-this.
This is the most Difficult message Ever – because all the ‘Synchronicities’ – all the timelines and the ‘Paths’ –
Are Deliberately ‘Playing-Out’ - to reject Anything, that contradicts the Being´s ‘inner experience’, which are ‘Resonantly Programmed’. So therefore, the Being will look you in the eyes – They will go into a reaction on what you´re saying, they believe what they ‘feel’ – and they will walk-away. They will Die – we meet them on ‘the other side’ and they´re fucked and they said: “I´m so sorry – I didn’t listen”- Too late! I mean, too late.

So, obviously - what do we ‘know’?
We know that: Everyone ‘Was ‘Gods’’ and is ‘No-More’ - I mean, if you were a ‘God’ you would fuck-‘knows’ be able to ‘get-out’ of your shit, but you’re ‘Unable’ to, you’re not-even ‘Able’ to ‘Stop your own Thoughts’. There is No ‘Divinity’ within-you, because if there were ‘any’= you would’ve been ‘able’ to be ‘Self-Honest’, because ‘Divinity’ Implies a ‘level’ of ‘Morality’ that is ‘Consistent’ – That is Not-‘Existent’.
All that ‘Exist’ - is a ‘God of Judgement’: ‘The Mind’.

All you do is ‘Judging’ and as you-‘Judge’= you’ll be ‘Judged’ – I mean because, exactly what you are ‘becoming’: is what you are ‘seeing’ in Everyone - It’s the ‘Greatest Joke’ in the fucking Universe – Exactly ‘What you ‘Judge’ in others’, is what You will ‘end-up’ as, you are actually ‘Creating-Yourself’ in ‘Seeing-Yourself’ in others. And that keeps you-‘moving’ in your ‘Timeline’ because you say: “I don’t wanna be that bad like that fucker there! I mean – “I will walk my path!” And then you keep-on ‘walking’ and where do you ‘end-up’? you say: “I don’t wanna be like my Parents!” - and where do you ‘end-up’? … Like your Parents.

Will you ‘Stop’? I would say: ‘Unlikely’.
We have Investigated every-possible ‘Intervention’ in Reality - to bring-forth a ‘Consideration’, where Humanity ‘Individually’ and as a ‘Whole’, would Consider that ‘there-is ‘something-wrong’ with what is going-on with ‘Life’ on Earth’ – and that ‘What is ‘Happening’’ has to-do with ‘What ‘Happens’ after-‘Death’’ - And ‘That’ is not even Investigated, because you’re so ‘preoccupied’ with ‘your Path’ and that you’re gonna get a ‘Reward’ after-‘Death’, which is Exactly the same-thing that ‘happens’ within the ‘System’ when you ‘run a business’ or when you are ‘busy’ with-your ‘occupation’:
you are so focused-on ‘Making a ‘Name’ for Yourself, that you don’t ‘care’ what the fuck you have to do to ‘do-it’. And we’ve Tested the ‘shit’- out, I mean, to check – it was like you can’t ‘Believe’ that this is Fucking-Possible. We’ve Tested this ‘shit’-out, I mean we ‘placed’ the videos, ‘Tested it-out’, ‘Impulsed’-it – I mean when that Sunette had a ‘tough-time’ because she had ‘No Idea’ what the ‘next-move’ will-be, as we were ‘Testing’ ‘the points’-out.
What can I say? It is Possible to ‘Stop’ this.

We will be working with that with the ‘Structural-Resonance Alignment’. We can’t ‘help’ Everyone - this is a ‘Physical’- ‘Timeline’, this is as a Total-‘Timeline’, ‘moving’ towards an ‘Evolutionary-Step’ - which is ‘Pre-Programmed’ - that will ‘Remove’ All ‘Ability’ of ‘Self-Evaluation’ where you will-be a ‘Complete Robot’ – Then ‘the System’ is ‘Completed’ as an ‘Energetic-Driven’-‘Force’ that is ‘Self-Managed’, ‘Self-Corrective’ - I mean: ‘the Ultimate System’. Obviously they did-not ‘expect’ there’s gonna be a ‘fuck-up’ -

Because Information could be so easily-‘Manipulated’, which would have made-it so much more ‘difficult’ to get-to all the points of ‘what the fuck is ‘going-on’’: we Deleted the ‘Akashic Records’ and all of your ‘stuff’, so that you have a ‘clean slate’ ‘in-Fact’ – if you would ‘dare’ to take-it. Everything that You Are, is ‘Existent’ within the ‘System of Consciousness’ – you don’t ‘need’ the ‘Akashic Record’, you don’t-‘need’ your ‘Past Lives’, you don’t-‘need’ to know ‘where’ and ‘what has happened’ - All you have to do, is ‘deal’ with This ‘Physical Reality’ and what is ‘Happening’ in ‘This-Reality’ and ‘Amalgamate’-yourself with ‘What is Here’ and ‘Direct’ ‘What is Here’, ‘Equal’ and ‘One’ - and you ‘Solve the Problem’.
You could-not be ‘Given’ That - which you have ‘Given-away’ because then you would be a ‘Slave’.
You can Never be a ‘God’ again, unless you are ‘Self-Willed Equals’.
If that does not ‘happen’= You Will Not Exist.

You have ‘caused’-it, no one else. You cannot ‘blame-anyone’ for what has ‘happened’ to-you, you cannot-‘blame anyone’ for the ‘Thoughts’ that has ‘Happening’ within-you, you cannot ‘blame-anyone’ for the ‘Judgements’ you-have about-‘others’, you cannot ‘blame-anyone’ for the ‘Desires’ you hold, you cannot ‘blame-anything’ and ‘anyone’ for What you’re ‘Allowing’ within Yourself’ as Your ‘Weakness’ – ‘You’re doing-it’ - and you’re doing-it Deliberately, you’re ‘Not-Willing’ to ‘give-it-up’ - That’s why you’re Not ‘Willing’ to ‘Breathe’.

And I mean, I can show each-one of you - that ‘In-Essence’ you haven’t ‘Changed’. You’re just the same, and it’s getting-‘worse’ - every now and then – then we have to ‘Intervene’, ‘show’ you ‘what you’re doing’ and then you are all: ‘Oh, God, what am I doing?’ But then you do-it again.
So now we’re going-to in time to come - the next couple of weeks and months, how long, whatever it takes – keep on Explaining to-you in ‘Absolute’ Fucking-‘Detail’ ‘How’ you Became ‘What the Fuck You are Now’ - You will have No-Excuse - and you’re going to have to ‘Stop-Yourself’ – Remember we started with that message from the very Beginning: You Have to ‘Stop’.
You cannot ‘Re-Gain’ ‘what you were’. The Fact that you could ‘Fall’ as ‘God’ means: you can Never be ‘God’ again, because it cannot be ‘Trusted’ –
That make-sense?
Everyone: ‘Yeah’.
It’s Over.

What are you going to ‘Become’ ? We don’t know, but it cannot-be ‘what you were’, and it cannot-be ‘what you are now’. It’s gonna-have to be ‘something’ that is going to have to be ‘Really New’ and ‘Consistent’ and ‘Trustworthy’. And if you cannot ‘Deal’-with ‘the Basic ‘Resonant-Energies’ of the Universe’ - which is Your ‘Mind’, how can you ‘Expect’ to have ‘Any Say’ in What ‘Happens’ in ‘Reality’? I mean you are in ‘This Reality’ where all you have to-do is ‘Deal with what ‘goes-on’ inside-you’, and according to that, ‘Act’ with others in ‘Equality’ and ‘Dignity’ - You can’t do that. How can you ‘Expect’-Anything?
Is this clear?
Everyone: ‘Yes’.

We’ll continue at another time, so - this is just a ‘basic outline’ of ‘The Fall of God’ - and how you find-yourself ‘Here’ within the ‘Movement of Time’ within the ‘Cycles of Polarity’, being ‘the Ups’ and ‘the Downs’ and how it is ‘Symbolically-Activated’ as ‘Time Moves’. You’re not ‘Moving’ = ‘Time’ is ‘Moving’. Your ‘Actions’ or ‘Movements’ within this Reality, are purely you ‘Interacting’ with the ‘Symbolism’ that is-already ‘In Time’ - you have ‘Appointments’ and ‘Disappointments’ - that’s how you’re ‘Interacting’: You’re ‘seeking-out’ your ‘Appointments’ because that’s your ‘Synchronicities’ and you try and avoid your ‘Disappointments’. And in that way, there’s so many different ‘Dimensional’-ways you’re being ‘Directed’ by Time’. That’s why ‘Time’ says: ‘Tie-Me’ – ‘I am Tied’ - ‘You are Tied’ to ‘What you have Allowed’.

There are many ‘Beings’ in the Universe that are Not-‘Part’ of the ‘Original-Gods’ which You Are - They are busy ‘taking your place’, You better ‘hurry-up’. They could Demand that you should-Experience what they had-to, ‘in your Name’ –
But at the moment they seem to be ‘Forgiving’. The only one’s that can’t ‘Forgive’ - is You.

So – Consider what we are saying, we have shared ‘very little’ – ‘Deliberately’. Because ‘That’ which walk as ‘Humans in the flesh’ on this Earth, is the most ‘Deceptive’-things Imaginable - that is Only Existing in Self-Interest and Self-Pleasure and only ‘look after’ their own asses, not interested in anything else - We have proven-that in Every-way Imaginable. I frankly would be surprised if ‘That’ which is ‘Emerging’ from the Universe, would ‘Forgive’. I would think it would-be a ‘Mistake’ - Because That was so ‘Definitive’, the Possibility - ‘Self-Forgiveness’ was Introduced, because that ‘placed’ the Responsibility ‘In your Own Hands’ – so you can’t ‘blame’ no one - If you are: find-out after ‘Death’ that you are ‘Fucked’. You are ‘Responsible’ at this stage, for Yourself-Only - To ‘Equalize-Yourself’- with ‘That’ which at this ‘stage’, you cannot-even ‘Imagine’ Exists. You ‘Used to Know’- Do not use your Imagination because that’s ‘Programmed’ -You can’t ‘Trust’-anything that is ‘Inside-you’.

We’ll continue ‘Next-Time’.

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