We humans are so obsessed by the looks of things, we are judging ourselves and others, non of us really being free of this bullshit.
Most of the time I do not really care about my looks, I am kinda 'messy' appearance. It is not who I am.
That's me talking from within another system - the 'I don't care, I am tough' demon. That's the one that says: 'ah, well, let's just make a video and show how tough I am - I don't care, I am not my looks'
I am directing myself to "I see me' 'I hear me' - and then quite another story pops up: I am scared to expose myself to the world as Who I Really Am. What I really Look Like. Without the masks, naked, not longer anonymously. For all to see and judge I am not perfect.
Yet another mind set speaking - 'I am so open and honest and vulnerable, please don't hurt me!' Many ways to accomplish that, just playing this part. So that's not who I really am either. And I wont waste my time or bandwidth on this one either.
The next one: 'I must be selfhonest and show it!
So this is the loop I am in, ending up doing nothing but worry about it, feeling 'unworthy' to be even on this planet.
Only the thought of me shaving my head and be without my hair, no! I do not want that
will continue later, gotta go